Thursday, December 16, 2010

Welcome to Townsville and love is in the air.

"What did we  tell you about stealing, Mojo Jojo." - The Power Puff Girls.

what happened to them nuns?

What happened to me either? I feel so dead, unalive. UGH this is really bad. So, yea, I've been wondering about what to do and where to go but things never come out right, holidays' are supposed to be happy and spending my day outside, hanging out with my friends and so on. But the good thing is, a friend of mine, Michelle Adriana, she's coming to my house soon for a make up class, I can see how excited she is cause she really likes eyeliner and stuff, ad she wants me to teach her, YAY Imma make up tutor now!

 Blair and Elle Fowler

I've been watching their videos, all day since holiday started, cause I'm never bored watching them and I don't know why. Much probably because they're funny and really sweet, reviewing products and make up tutorials. OH they are the best!

 

I must never probe your existant

All dates are official


Yesterday, is bad. Cause my boyfriend took me out to the mall, well, as promised. And something bad happened. His sister called and needs him to fetch her cause her boyfriend is unable to do that. It was planed, well planed that he'd take me home at 6 something pm, and at 3 pm, he had to take me home. Which is sad. And no, I'm not angry, just upset that we haven't really met in days and finally we have the chance to go out together and it's ruined. I don't blame him nor I blame anyone, just felt uneasy and hard to deal with this feeling. I know I know, I'm pathetic. I'm not being a crybaby or anything, but this happened for so many times and I can't remember exactly how many times. This is sad. He yet promised me that he'd take me out again either today or tomorrow, he said he promised. Anddd, he spent his day today with his family, but I'm ok cause I know there's another promise for tomorrow. Then again, he said he couldn't take  me out tomorrow, I don't really know when again. It's really about the promise though.

Death is peaceful, live is difficult.

h e l l o


Then again, someone here is whining about how boring the holiday is, no car, no cash, there's nothing I could do much about it. But I have my parents and my boyfriend to keep me un-boring, and I'm not really sure if they could do that. Dad must be really tired or busy with work and me being a good considerate daughter, I've decided to leave him with his work and take me out when he's free. While my boyfriend is always unavailable due to cash and transportation problem. Now I'm so screwed. Note that I'm not the one who loves money huh! I don't care if he doesn't have a car or cash, I want his time baby!


I would want to attend some parties somehow, or make one myself and invite my friends. But I surely know, organizing a party is really tiring and busy, and that I'm really short of cash now, how can throw a party?! OH NO I'm stuck in my house hoping that my boyfriend has the transportation to take me out, you know catch some movies, popcorns, some meals or anything, as long as I'm outside, my boring could decrease up to 80% maybe. SO, yeah, I hope the following days won't bore me much.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

You gain fat cause of your lies and being a bitch to the society.

is there anymore to gossip about?


Bored, stoned, sitting in your basement all alone
'Cause your little conversation's got around
And look at what we all found out
Lookie here we all found out

That you have got a set of loose lips
Twisting stories all because you're jealous
Now I know exactly what you're all about
And this is what you're all about

this is for you, bitch!
 
Girl, you're such a backstabber
Oh girl, you're such a shit talker

Friday, December 10, 2010

Maybe sometimes it's because of, us.

Nijiko Suryadikara
 

trust me you don't look stupid.

 Nijiko, she's ma babe. So, we knew each other since grade 2, and that would be 10 years something of friendship. I wouldn't say we're bestfriends, we're just close and we do understand each other more than anyone does. TRUST ME. Anyways, she could be a nerd if she wants to, I don't know man, but I feel like she studies a lot well maybe it's because I don't really study or what LOL. She stresses herself for wanting to be in the top 3 - Nijiko, that's not healthy - and sometimes I would say "don't stress that much".


We don't seem to like something in common except arts, she's really good at drawing!

Now I'm at lost for words, I don't seem to be creative enough blogging. OH NO I hate myself. Anyways, read her blog Cast The Spotlight for more stories of us, titled Nicole Lorenza.

Lots of love.

The bridges are crumpled, the water soaks into rocks, that fell at the bottom of the road.

BITE ME


Went to McDonald's this morning with my boyfriend, and again, I'm pregnant. Get what that means? I'M STUFFED. Well, I kinda hate this feeling when I feel like throwing up. Anyways, my plans didn't seem to work because he had a lil incident at home and can't leave. What's worst is that he left his phone in my purse, well, we can't text and call, we could only chat a lil through Yahoo Messenger. And now he's doing something, taking care of some problem I guess, I heard that there's a car accident and they're kinda involved. So, yeah, I'm gonna go out with my parents later, and hang with my boyfriend some other day.

These violent delights have violent ends. And in their triumph die, like fire and powder. Which, as they kiss, consume.


I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
 
 
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

She is as beautiful as a princess. She is smart. She is the one who let's me down.

I love you, I love you, I love you, Beatrice.


Beatrice, what a beautiful name. Let me introduce, she is my 10 years old little sister. Read my title again and you might ask why she lets me down. Well, we fight and argue everyday, yes, everyday. She's really good at talking back to me and parents when we nag at her. She'd ask me silly questions when she knew the answer, isn't this annoying? OH it so is.. And I love to bite her fingers HAHA I know this fucking silly, but I do love her fingers, small but chubby, it's really tasty. We'd hit quite well when we're playing some games either in my iTouch or her DS, we both would laugh and share some crazy opinions and argue a lil bit.

  
BUT, if she's nicer and kind-er to me, I'd be really nice to her I SWEAR. I'd buy her stuff she likes everytime I go out. I'd help her dress every morning. I'd watch Barbie with her anytime she wants to. I really wish this could happen somehow, cause she's really adorable, but she's just too annoying and naughty to dote for. I hate her for being this way and this makes me think that I'm a bad sister. I enjoy fooling her either. Am I a bad sister? I guess not huh?


Another confession, I really wanna hug her sometimes, especially when she cries, but I don't have the guts to do that. Well, at the very least I tried to calm her down. HAHA such a good sister me. OH NO NO NO I wouldn't want my family to read this post, I'd be really embarrassed. I hope everything will turn out smoothly between us.



Too much to ask, too much to care, too much to ignore.

"You gotta give me some answers.." - Bella Swan, Twilight.

How I wish my holidays aren't this boring. LOL this is bad. I've been going to the same malls all over Batam with my dad, didn't seem to find anything interesting. Oh, I watched Narnia yesterday with dad, in 3D. It is sooo amazing! You guys should go watch though, it's really worth it. Anyways, since this is Skandar Keynes' last movie in Narnia, he's the Edmund guy. I personally love the whole idea of this movie, and watching them grow up, it's really amazing, bah! LOL I'm talking like a mother!

Anyways, I've been thinking a lot about family picnic, but i can't think where are we gonna have it. It's really complicated here. I don't know. I wanna spend my time having fun with my family - whoo I'm such a family girl huh? - watching movies or dine outside but I wanna spend my time with my boyfriend too. OH NO, I'm rumbling and bubling and lalala-ing. Sorry readers, this is how I am.

Anndd, I got it all planned out with my boyfriend, for tomorrow. We're going to hang in a mall, catch a movie - Narnia again i hope, have our lunch at Pizza Hut. I just wanna have fun tomorrow, since we've been arguing about some stupid problem. 

WHY ARE MY POST SO RANDOM?!

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Being insane and abnormal is not a sin, it's a creativity.

I don't care how gay he is.

 
I saw a picture of you
Hanging in an empty hallway
I heard a voice that I knew
And I couldn't walk away
It took me back to the end
Of everything
I tasted all
I tasted all the tears
again

Outside the rain's fallin' down
There's not a drop that hits me
Scream at the sky but no sound
Is leavin' my lips
It's like I can't even feel
After the way you touched me
I'm not asleep but I'm not awake
After the way you loved me

I can't turn this around
I keep running into walls that I can't break down
I said I just wander around
With my eyes wide shut because of you
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker

Let me out of this dream


 
Everywhere that I go
I see another memory
And all the places we used to know
They're always there to haunt me
I walk around and I feel so lost and lonely
You're everything that I want
But you don't want me

I can't turn this around
I keep running into walls that I can't break down
I said I just wander around
With my eyes wide shut because of you
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker

Let me out of this dream, dream
Let me out of this dream

I can't turn this around
I keep running into walls that I can't break down
I said I just wander around
With my eyes wide shut because of you
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker



Let me out of this dream

I'm never perfect and I don't wanna be perfect.

Hello again strangers, it's good to be blogging again.

          Diesel underwear adds, super cute!

I am so freakingly sorry for not being to update my blog in such a long time. As y'all know, I'm having a first term exam and it quite kept me busy reading and studying my books, so I don't have this much time to blog. No, exams aren't done yet, till tomorrow! Tomorrow's the last day of exam and school will resume at 6th January, can't wait. Now I'm fucking bubling about everything, ya can't tell how excited I am for the holidays. But I'm pretty sure that my holiday's gonna suck, boring and dead, at least I don't have to wake up at 6.30 in the morning. So, where and how you guys gonna spend your holiday? I bet it's gonna be fun.



I think I screwed my papers! I didn't study much, I spend my time shitting around tweeting when I'm not supposed to! I just don't understand why did my tweeting mood came back when I should be in my desk memorizing shits. Well, everything depends on the guard - guard, because he/she watches us during the exam - y'all know why, screw you if you don't! And of course there are some teachers who i would like kill, cause they won't even let us blink our eyes! Well, not really like that, but it's somehow like that. Now I'm bubling again. Grr!

Anyways, it's really fun to work together and break some rules, who wouldn't do that? Even Hermione said "it's fun right, breaking rules".