And again, I've grew tired of this game but still am not giving up, why? WHY? I should get over it by now! Fuck i should!
By late January, he mentioned something about breaking me up. He's telling me this so that i could be ready when the day comes. I was so afraid, frustrated, angry, sad, suicidal and blah blah blah. Trust me, it's just the beginning of this pain. But then, there's something unusual. I felt something didn't go quite right since. Sigh, he still loves me, a lot. Fuck I know he still loves me a lot. But why break me up? I kept on asking why why why, give me the reasons why. At first he said he didn't know, stop asking him, he didn't wanna talk to me. Things like that.
Early February, he mentioned again about this. By then I started crying every night, he cried too, but, what's the use, really? I was the one keeping our relationship strong, keeping the strings attached. Hoping he would come back, loving me like always. This month was just okay, nothing much about torturing.
March. We broke up at 20th March. Fuck my life, seriously just kill me. I mean, killing is the only way to stop the pain. I kept enduring it until now. He started being mean, didn't wanna talk, text blah blah blah. OH FUCK I'm so tired of this mess.
But I've got friends who i could rely on. OH, I forgot some parts of my story.. Gee, I'll bitch again sometime HAHA you won't believe what he did a week after the break up. KISS MAH ASS!